I have been into spanking for long as I can remember, obviously like most people that stemmed from childhood. I struggled with it at first, now I try to use it for my benefits, health happiness, motivation. I have always loved feeling of being safe at first over the knee, feeling that person does physically hold me, wrapping her leg around the back of my mind or whatever it takes to give me the real long spanking I deserve. Someday it.would be nice to find a disciplinarian I can let go with, confess and repent into a sobbing little boy.